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not to get too dark or in the weeds of things i dont want to dredge up. BUT there were three albums at the hardest and darkest point of my life that i clung to like a fucking life line and this was one of them. the fun songs were fun enough to make me actually want to dance around and the sad ones let me cry until i broke blood vessels around my eyes. honestly, i don't care what else she puts out, this is always going to be the album and the era that i hold closest. it may not be my favorite, and i may not always pick up these songs, but they are so woven into who i was at 14 and the pain i felt then, i can't help but to cherish it and thank it for getting me through.

  • state of grace
  • quite possibly my favorite album opening of hers. both full and acoustic versions are stunning

  • red
  • i love how looking at the lyrics you'd expect such a different tone in the song but she couches it in such pop joy

  • treacherous
  • GOD yeah. this song. everything about it. the bridge is just. wow.

  • i knew you were trouble
  • do i think about the goat vine everytime i listen to it? yeah, yeah i do.

  • all too well (10 minute!)
  • it feels weird to listen to the 5 minute version now and i think parts of the 10 minute could've been trimmed BUT it has such a dramatic story arc through it and her vocals are insane

  • 22
  • in the context of the lyrics of all too well 10 minute version, the title of this song feels so much worse.

  • i almost do
  • i listened to the song like it was my religion in 2017 for reasons. harder to listen to now because of it but still so good

  • we are never ever getting back together
  • i cannot lie. this song slaps in a very 2012 way. like would it be made fun of if it came out now? yeah for sure, but it just taps into a real moment in time for me

  • stay stay stay
  • not her best song but also not one that i'm going to skip

  • the last time
  • the last time walked so exile could run

  • holy ground
  • one of her most underrated songs of all time, honestly. it is so phenomenal and fun and deserves more

  • sad beautiful tragic
  • i have to be in the right mood to want to put this on but when im in that mood nothing else hits like this

  • the lucky one
  • i remember being so surprised at the storytelling in this song the first time i listened to it and thought it was so fictionalized--i realize now it likely wasnt

  • everything has changed
  • i remember being such an ed sheeran and taylor fan at this point and this song was life changing

  • starlight
  • i know this song isn't one of her best, but it holds a place in my heart

  • begin again
  • such a great album ender but not one i gravitate too as much

  • the moment i knew
  • this evokes such a feeling of high school for me, not in a bad way by any means, but it just does

  • come back...be here
  • this song makes me wanna scream the chorus out with my arms spread open and stomping my feet

  • girl at home
  • i don't even remember this song in 2012 and even now it doesn't stick to me

  • ronan
  • don't exactly feel comfortable speaking on this becuse it is so personal but--it's heartbreaking

  • better man
  • solid song, but there are so many others on this track list i'd rather listen to first

  • nothing new
  • i am so glad i did not listen to this song until i was 23. i would not have understood it. and now that i do, it's the song that makes me want to lie down and sob

  • babe
  • eh. not my favorite but also not the worst.

  • message in a bottle
  • feels so deeply 1989 that its interesting to think it was written for this album

  • i bet you think about me
  • maybe one of her best songs on this album and its a goddamn crime it was a vault track

  • forever winter
  • heartbreaking heartaching vulnerable beyond belief

  • run
  • maybe one of my least favorites in her entire discography

  • the very first night
  • i get why this song was cut but i really wish it hadn't been. this would've been life changing at 14

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