if i think about these two for too long i start crying.

these two are just the definition of pure tragedy to me. because we see pre-toji incident that they were so close, we can see the potential of a future. one where satoru gojo isn't The Strongest, alone, but he and suguru are the strongest together. and it's heartbreaking to see everything crumble over the years and know why.

they also act as such great foils to each other in terms of the narrative, both molded by the horror and tragedy they faced but whereas satoru has the confidence that he will always pull through, that he can survive, suguru doesn't. because ultimately, amanai died on suguru's watch, not satoru's. and by no means is that suguru's fault, but it sure as hell informs the absolute chasm that forms between them before his defection. because satoru will always be better, be stronger, it's his nature. his birth fundamentally altered the balance of good/bad in the world--what could suguru do?

and then you have satoru who we see as a child is borderline cruel sometimes, bored and apathetic. there's no thrill or childhood enjoyment to be had when everyone panders to your every whim. suguru humanized him, made him realize the value of being alive, not just as a powerful sorcerer, but as a person. satoru is only a figurehead without suguru. then everything falls apart and even when everything satoru has been taught tells him he should execute his friend, he can't. he's too human now to.

i go crazy thinking about the time in between the kfc breakup and vol0, because they HAD to have known what each other was doing to some extent. they were keeping tabs as not old friends but fresh enemies. and then to see each other again for what is barely a few minutes as suguru declares war--makes me feel insane. and i TRULY BELIEVE that the words we don't hear satoru say before he kills suguru is something to the extent of 'i love you'. because love is the ultimate curse in the end isn't it? and suguru asked him to curse him

okay so i get for most ships how het dudebros could look at it and be like 'just dudes being bros' but i canNOT envision how someone looks at shibuya and sees purely platonic. like what the fuck do you mean 'my heart and soul knows otherwise', resisting the unmatched power of your techniques to tell you that isn't suguru. satoru is so so deeply and tragically gay for suguru and kenjaku knows this--that's why he's exploiting it. ALSO you're telling me a mere friendship can stir whatever part of suguru's soul still lingers to his body? it can make what is functionally a corpse try to take control again? a MERE FRIENDSHIP alright dude whatever those two were in love idc

and dont even get me started on the manga, with gojo choosing to fight sukuna on the 24th, on geto's death anniversary ONLY TO DIE THAT DAY AND IMAGINE HIMSELF IN AN AIRPORT WITH TEENAGE GETO. god they're so gay and tragic.